Happy Valentine’s Day… I feel like my husband is cheating on me. Is it trust issues or is there something to this feeling? I wish I could pinpoint the problem or even narrow it down, but the truth is just that I feel, and have felt for a long time, that he is keeping something from me. I know he has kept things from me in the past, non cheating related, and it bothers me that I feel like he is holding back. And the worst part is that where I can see that if he is cheating, he should be the one feeling guilty and miserable… but I am the one left feeling inadequate, frumpy, and utterly alone.
OK I know, why am I writing this to the world and not talking to him? Well, first off I know that no one reads this blog. Secondly, I already feel rejected and isolated, why should I be the one to put myself out there to be crushed? Obviously this is far more complicated than what I can write and explain here, but my greatest question is what to do next? I can’t cry over this and I can’t seem to ignore it either. I guess I will have to try and get used to the elephant in the room…lord knows he is oblivious.
