Although I know my “following” is few to none, I feel that I have to clear my husband. We are in a major transition and after a day or two of my being out of sorts and distrustful, the bottom line is that I had to break down and just talk to him. The elephant was in my head, not the room! After the beginning of a potential argument, we were interrupted by our nearly 1 year old son at about 2am and this turned out to be the best time to talk. I love my husband. I have come to discover that I am one of those dreaded women who create drama when there is none provided… my husband loves me and he has always been faithful.
We have been together for nearly 9 years, married 4 1/2 years, and there is still a learning curve to communication… especially hard when you have children that consume your time and attention. What we have come to learn since having both boys, my working fulltime and Mat growing his business, is that we have to pay far more attention to each other and make the time to be a couple, not just parents. Our marriage is and will always be a work in progress.
As I have not and will not go into any details, I can’t explain why I won’t take all the guilt and remorse for the feelings I had, but I think it is safe to say that here was an instance that my trying to balance life, love and work tipped the scale. I will never claim to be great at the role I am in, but I try and that is all I can ask of myself. Every now and then, I am bound to trip up and just be thankful that I have a solid family and extended family who will catch me if I fall (or at least grab my hand while they laugh!)
