It is a new year and I am the old me… for now anyway.  I need a change and it won’t just be a haircut this time!  I have been playing this juggling game, which is getting old and I am getting tired.  I miss being a wife and I miss being myself.  I haven’t been the world’s best employee (despite what my coffee mug says) and my house is a mess!  The only people who I am any good with are my boys and that is limited lately.  So, somethings gotta give.

I am not looking to be the ultimate soccer mom nor the I can do it all executive with a family, but I am looking for myself.   I am a mother and a wife, and I need to find a “career” that is in line with those priorities.  I am not a cookie-cutter kind of person, so I am looking to create my own opportunities.  I have always wanted my own business and I am afraid that it will never be the right time to just do it.  I think that what is really holding me back right now is just the vision to see my path.  I am also realistic to know that it will take lots of time and money, but creating my own business opportunities is the only way that I can make it as rewarding as the effort that I put in.

I lack direction.  I went online and found a myers-briggs test and was disappointed to find that it did not compute precisely what I should be when I grow up.  Disappointing.  I must say that the dead-on insight was remarkable.  Perhaps somehow I can take this insight and figure it all out because I am way behind my goal of making my first million by the age of 30!  Ok, so the test helped, but the bottom line is that I have realized I need to make changes and I am starting to take the steps to make it happen.  When all is said and done, it really is up to me to make it happen.